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Silent ScreamIt was dim and dark
yet comfort, I felt.
in this darkness.
In this loveliness,
waiting to come out.
Waiting to see you
Though I cannot see,
I feel your touch,
behind these walls.
And I cannot wait
to be with you
And I wanted to escape.
But then I felt her fingers,
clutching, feeling, blocking
And as she placed inside
a thing that I don't know
and then I tried to hide,
As the poison dissolves.
I want my Daddy.
I tried to choke,
they cannot feel,
they cannot hear,
my silent scream,
and it's eating me
My heart stops.
I want Daddy.
I fade away.
A rush of blood.
They still can't feel
Why d'you have to kill me?
Why do it now?
Why can't you hear me?
Am I unloved?
As I float my way to heaven
up, up, I fly
thinking of my Daddy
I am unloved.
They will never miss
they will never see
They're the lucky ones
who did not
FlyTry as I might
I ended up falling...
falling and falling
that you will catch me
from deus ex machina
but I keep on falling
day after day.
Faced down I landed
on the muddy rocky bottom,
shattered pieces of my heart
scattered on my bosom.
I stood up willing to try again;
climbed the peaks,
on the edge,
Feeling the breeze
as I leap on the edge.
Starting to fall
all over again.
"A happy thought",
Peter Pan once said.
A memory, a face
of you in my head.
Such magic engulfed me!
Then I began to float.
on my mental note.
The mid-air breeze
against my hair and skin,
as I play on the clouds,
What Happiness can bring!
You needed not to catch me anymore.
I needed not to fall again on the floor.
Trying to die;
Dying to try
`cause now I know,
you taught me how to fly.
Scene From An Old MovieShe can only admire him from afar,
and that's the way it has to be.
The complexities of all the facts.
The emotions maybe unreal.
Even though it's just infatuation,
the limitations must be kept.
For she knows that he will hurt her,
from the moment that they met.
His sweetness are all true.
Her happiness cannot be denied.
They've been friends, for all they knew,
so attraction must be kept aside.
And now she's lonely, for it cannot be
to show her feelings of unrest.
And maybe he knew it, for all he care
she is nothing of his interest.
The game of love has not begun,
however, she already lost.
Their friendship is the only thing,
that they should treasure most.
Evening StarAs your blood rushes through my veins,
rose-colored petals snowed.
The endless waltz of my dreams
viewed across this sunset
and you, my evening star shines my way.
My moon illumines through your misty skies,
the tenderness of your luscious kiss
covering, sheltering me from life.
And no, I don't want to escape
from the warm nest of your shoulders.
My evening star, my love.
You stabbed me with your silver arrows,
and forever blinding me with your light.
Suppressed from freedom,
I lose myself to you,
engulf me whole my darling
The Moon CriedIn this river I float.
I watched the black sky.
The moon cried.
In this river I swim.
Caught the breath of life.
Freezing, I swim.
The moon cried.
In this river I drown.
And you pulling me down.
Caught the breath of life.
To struggle is to live.
So I let myself drown.
Purple RoomThe stillness of the purple room,
the hazy mid-afternoon breeze,
touched our naked skin,
as we lose ourselves into each others arms.
Every deep breaths of I love yous,
As you sincerely gaze upon my tormented soul,
For each blessed moment I die and live..
Longing for you,
needing your touch,
drowning every loving second of your words.
My disrupt bleak solitude,
rests by the nearness of you.
So bleed for me my lovely depression,
as we dance to this bittersweet waltz,
don't let go, as we swirl, heedlingly we bend.
My taboo love.
Can Your Parents Relate?You, the girl in the corner of your bedroom
That with each passing year since birth
Has had her confidence sold to those that stare
For so much less than it is worth
When it should be a priceless commodity
Especially to a doting dad
Is he not supposed to give to his child
All the things that he never had?
You, the girl in the corner of the classroom
That has forgotten how to smile
Are you tired of being told it’s just a phase
And you’ll snap out of it in a while?
It should be obvious that you are struggling
Especially to a loving mum
As she's already lived through those tearful days
That for you have yet to come
You, the girl hiding in the shadow you cast
Please accept your parent’s flaws
No matter what success or failure you taste
Do not let them be the cause
They created a life in love or in lust
Now nurturing has turned to neglect
A bird feeds her young till the day they can fly
So maybe now you should leave the nest
Beware Of The Bad BoySo he touches you in all of the right places
But with a clenched fist and not a gentle hand
By ‘right places’ I mean those easily hidden
By the latest expensive designer brand
Which he buys you to either keep your silence
Or to beg and to plead for your forgiveness
Is this where the attraction of a bad boy lies?
Please explain where is the excitement in this?
So he kisses you with a so-called passion
His hands round your neck steal a two letter word
It seems that he cannot feel satisfaction
Unless you show him signs that his dominance hurts
Which he tightens each time to keep your silence
Or maybe he just enjoys hearing you moan
Is this the deed of some stalker, some stranger?
No, this is your husband and this is your home
So he lays you out on the living room floor
I wonder what will fall down to the carpet first
The drops of blood from between your legs
Or the tears flowing between his regretful words
Which he whispers in your ear as you lay silent
It’s safe to say
Introspection in a Pale Moon LightAm I a dream of the universe?
A microcosm of the cosmos
A transient flash of memory
Soon forgotten for eternity
Am I a conscious collection of atoms?
Converging together at random
An essence in constant motion
Like a ripple upon the ocean
We are all made of star dust
Born when giant gas clouds combust
In a symphony of the spheres
Free from anxiety and of fears
We are never ending energy
Dancing across the galaxy
From Andromeda to the Milky Way
Like a ballerina in a ballet
Schrodinger's CatAm I alive? Or am I dead?
Have I just purred? Or have I bled?
Being locked in that dreadful box,
I have become a paradox.
A flask of poison on the floor,
A radioactive source in store,
And a hammer to judge my fate -
Try and define my doubtful state -
Am I alive? Or am I dead?
Have I just purred? Or have I bled?
DethronedDelicate fingertips were once against my cheek,
as were the smiles that you so affectionately cast towards me.
But then you tossed me into the gaping sea,
and I am no longer a beloved queen to thee.
WordsIt’s when I get my thoughts to rhyme
That I can truly start to see
What has been swirling in my mind,
And then I get to set it free.
A turmoil of chaotic calls
Becomes a desperate, pleading choir
Of thousands of tangled words
Awaiting me to help them thrive.
They cry, and weep, and beg like kids,
Won’t let me drown myself in sleep
Until I give them what they need –
A string of rhythm and sense to grip.
I strive and strive to make them speak
And give them a melodic vibe.
Yet their presence is too weak,
I'm losing hope that they'll survive.
But after stumbling time and time
Again to let them slip away
I start to hear their chime.
I start to see them find a way.
So one by one and step by step
I see them coming up to me.
They join to spin a magic web –
My soul’s true epitome.
And that’s the place they shall remain,
In subtle, fearless accord.
I never thought that I could tame
Such mischievous, capricious words.
So now I’m pacing back and forth
She Does Not Love YouDo not hear
Her glorious speech
Pretend to be deaf.
Elude her hair
Dancing in the air
Don’t think about
Those sunny eyes
Knowing your past
With just one look.
Avoid her laugh
A melody of harp
Played by angels.
She’s hurting you
Giving you false
When she reveals
All her evil plan
You will be broken
Thinking about suicide.
Bury the memories
With you by her side
Even if they are
The best times
Of your life.
A Rainy PlaceWandering roads that branch so I can never see
Where the path I choose will likely carry me
Then comes the fear
As apprehension looms above
Like the cloud I am always victim of
Driest days are still enough to make me drown
Happy plays go on in side my little crown
But always in
To show these thoughts enlightening
Speed up the coming derailing
Conclusions crash from up above
To think my mind was stronger stuff
A paper boat
In sea that grows around my feet
The longer I wait with all the thoughts I keep
Mask the way with rain as paved paths taper on
The traveller who must be gone
Then comes the pain
How I cannot be one of them
Who takes a gamble on a whim
Yesterday was long before the one I made
I forget how many of them passed the same
My will is only weakening
Come future I will not be able swimming
Earth to break from where I stand as water falls
Wash the state lethargic I am victim of
Unable to move
Even when all offered it slowly takes
With nothing left I will not wake
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